Hello, Can You Bring The Sunshine Back?

Hi, i just arrived in KL yesterday, and i am nowhere near happy about it, not even close. I've never felt more down in my whole life, ah shucks

I dont even want to go Pavillion, or look at my shoes, or play with my clothes
Its not even funny
Hm, i dont feel like talking to anybody, so im not replying Z's messages
Excuse this emocrap, but im like so depressed -_-

I think the trip was way too short, i know i should be grateful, i am, but its like, zzzooom zzzooom, 6 days is not enough for Sipadan, especially when you dive

Its just bliss
I mean, there's nothing but water, and its just fantastic
I mean, from 8am-4pm you dive and dive, and eat, and then from 5pm onwards you just sit and play at the jetty, jumping into 5 metre deep water without any life jacket, just you
And at night, you just take in the sea breeze while watching wild lionfish dance below the jetty

SEEEEEEEEEE, 6 DAYS NOT ENOUGH ONE

I tried convincing my mom to go back err early december this year since im free for 2 weeks, but nah, mission failed
: O
Which means i've to wait 6 months until i can go back
I've said it before, i dont do patience, im very bad at it
OK OK

Eventhough i did 14 dives, somehow, its like, err, can i have somemore dives?
Ok ok, shutting up now
But i dont have pictures of me diving, no underwater camera maaaahhh

Im all dark now and my cheek has these dark patches, i've no idea what they are, but i dont careee, plus mom said they're gonna go away, but i dont feel like going out since they look odd. I dont want people to stare and give me pity looks about my skin, zzzzzzz

So im heading to Thailand this Saturday, which means i dont have to unpack
Im too depressed to unpack anywayssssss

WONDERLAND =






// We used those floats for fun, and in case we got tired from kicking our legs, i was trying to get a free ride with the kid brother, but as usual, rejecteddddd -_-



6 MONTHS 6 MONTHS 6 MONTHS
HERE'S HOPING//

Time To Grow Up Now

Today marks the last day i will go to school for this year since i will heading to Sipadan tomorrow, my flight is at 7AM, so i have to wake up at 4AM, GREAT

Time passes by so fast

I remember the first day of school, i was not happy, i was really angry bcs i got separated from my friends, it was my first time not being in a class with either Nadia/Fthn/Ndr/Elydia and i think it kinda freaked me out

I thought i was going to be lonely throughout the whole year

But naaaah, you were right, being in a different enviroment, it really just opens your eyes a little bit. You cant just be nestled comfortably with just one circle of friends and expect things to go so perfectly, bcs life's just not like that

You cant always get what you want

Needless to say, this year was great, really, turns out i was in an awesome class, and i got close to people i wouldnt even think of in a million years

Life kicks you in the ass really hard times

At this rate, i cant wait to see what the next school year has in store for me
Hmmm : )

You Can Just Pack Your Bags And Move Away

You know, when someone bitches about you
Be it behind your back, or right there in front of you
It sucks

And i think the easiest thing you can do is just utter back horrendous words right back at them. Bcs that anger it just crawls under your skin, and it swallows you whole. You cant do anything, especially if your heart is already full of so much hatred

You want them to be scared at you, you want to show that you're better
You want to win

But at the same time, honestly, i think it brings you down too. At the same level as the other person. True true, 2 wrongs dont make a right. I mean if both of you are just attacking one another with foul words, who's the better person? Nobody, simple as that

And i know, that the hardest thing you can do is just walk away, but its the best. Especially if that person is just not worth it. Walking away is hard, SO HARD, it takes all your strength, and you still want to spit at the person. But you'd feel so proud of yourself for walking away bcs deep inside you know you're different from that person

Thats what i think anyway

Im trying to get there, i admit i dont handle many situations as best as i could. I have a short fuse, and i get defensive when people shit about me, or those i care about. But after a series of events, i know that there's just no point really in retaliating, bcs you have nothing to prove to those haters. Next time, i'll try to handle the situation on a better level, bcs its about time, really

Some people just want to bring you down, for no apparent reason

So just walk away, with you head held high, remind yourself that these people are just a waste of your time, that you're a whole lot better than this. And thats about it

Im Hungry But I Dont Feel Like Killing Anyone?

The weather here is so depressing its affecting my mood

Everything's so dark and gloomy and damp and wet, its like ergh

I miss the sun

I think the weather is bringing me down with her too

Im a lot more melancholy at times

Bleh, i cant handle it when there's too much rain

I cant handle it when there's too much sun

I need balance

Look at me getting all serious// Freaky

Anyway, Leon (the cat) is all "grown up" now, all he wants to do is make love to Yuriko (another cat) Which is really nasty. And what's worse is the fact that he's trying to rape Daphne (another cat) too. But Daphne is smart, she growls and snarls at him, and she's like double his size. Plus she's already been neutered

I think we're going to have to cut Leon's balls

And i think he's (Leon) hormonal too, he's peeing everywhere, and i think i came close to hitting him when he peed on my curtains, and my carpet, and my blanket. But i didnt, hmmm

Wow, im so lucky -_-------

Can You Call Me at Midnight Sharp?

Meet my new lover, hihi, i love this, its something similar to what i saw at Forever21, but wayyyyy cheaper

This is why i live to shop, bargains

Bought an epaulet, one laced vintage blazer which is quite big but hey, its vintage, its supposed to look weird like that. I bought this ruffled skirt, i think its too girlish for my taste, maybe i'll bleach it tomorrow to make it look tougher, sort of. Maybe i'll blog about it

I saw this gorgeous vintage boyfriend tee. It was sort of a collage of patterns. I wanted to buy it, but when i asked the salesgirl she said it was 40 bucks. I was err, taken aback? Its vintage. Vintage is supposed to be cheap, none of my vintage rags cost me more than RM30 each. Dang, -_-

On Friday i purchased a pair of harem pants, and they're great, they look a bit odd on me, but i wouldnt have them any other way. I've always loved pants, i want a pair of dropcrotch pants but im sure everybody will stare if i wear pants like that. Hoho, i mean, i dont really like jeans, except skinny jeans, and a few other eccentric jeans like bleached/acidwashed/stonewashed jeans. But bootcut jeans, and all that common stuff, its doesnt reach out to me. Its a bit too um, boring. Hehe, sorry